One of my early memories is riding in the car with my mom and baby sister, singing “I can see forever in your eyes” by my idol, Reba McEntire. I grew up belting out tunes with her, Martina McBride, Faith Hill, Lorrie Morgan, Trisha Yearwood, and many others that I know I’m forgetting. Country music was what I grew with and it was my inspiration to start performing. When I was 15, I took to the stage. Two hundred people turned out for a benefit concert for the new local senior center that was being built. I started with those same classic tunes I started out with a decade earlier, and threw in a few newer hits. I continued from there, building up a collection of sheet music specially ordered from the local music store and entertaining long time friends in the nursing homes across town.
My senior year of high school brought a talent show where I gave a heartfelt performance of “There You’ll Be” by Faith Hill. I don’t know how I got through that performance since the pain of losing a close childhood friend was still very fresh in my mind. I don’t remember anyone being in the audience, I don’t remember the other performances, all I remember is Diane Brown being my pianist, and she accompanied me flawlessly, as always. She was my go-to pianist for almost all my performances. Special music on Sunday mornings, trendy new music to rock the boat during cowboy camps, anything really. Diane was always there.
My musical talents didn’t stop in college. I joined the school choir and performed at several schools functions during those the years. I loved being in front of a crowd, loved hitting those notes that most people were scared of, loved everything about it.
But then life happened.
I met a boy, got pregnant, was introduced to single parenthood, and had my second child. Music started fading into the background and before I realized it, the only crowd I was performing for were my babies. Don’t get me wrong, I know they love it, but the desire to perform in front of a crowd is still there. I long for karaoke nights with the girls, I’ve seriously contemplated auditioning for American Idol, and I have a list of songs to perform in church Sunday morning.
This passion has been simmering for too long, and I’m at a boiling point. The music has to be released. Wanna join me?